Old - Conve

It was like a dream when your message was arrived last night. Honestly, I didn't expect too much when I heard my Line Notification at the time, and never expect it would be from you. But, I read it so many times and very sure it was really your name that appeared on my screen. 

I opened that message hastily but read it slowly. Yep, you sent me a long text. I could predict the contents before read them all because this was the special day of mine.

You sent me "Happy Birthday" with some wishes for me. One of them that I remembered the most is "I hope you will find 'the one' soon, Andi."

Then I smiled. A really little smile. Little and bitter..

I knew that wish from you could be good and be bad at the same time. Why? The only reason why it sounds good cause you prayed for me to find 'The One'. But it sounds terrible too cause you convinced me that 'The One' never be you. Indirectly. Clearly implicit.

Then, my finger scrolled up the phone...

...to re-read our old conversations that wasn't able to be deleted by me.

I really couldn't believe what I saw and said, "Is this real? Did we ever been so close like this?"

I..

just...

could....

not.....

believe.....

it.

For God sake this is so UNREAL!!!

We ever spent the whole night with long deep conversation. You've spent a couple times telling your problems to me and I was always be there to heard it all. You ever asked me for some help and I was always there for you. I ever been in a very dangerous sadness and you came to cheer me up. It's killing me slowly knowing that how close we used to be.

Yeah, at least in the past. Not like present.

Now we are just two people who were far apart and I never know why. Maybe you are away for a reason. The reason that you yourself know. I can't remember how it changed so fast. The only thing I remember is suddenly you're just... away.

We are no longer say "Hi.." as we passed, even tough we've spent a lot of time together before. We are no longer get in touch, even tough we both know that we are missing each other. 

We are no longer us. We are just stranger. For now.

I love you from the start

so it breaks my heart

when you say that I'm just a friend to you

cause friends don't do the things we do

everybody knows you love me too

- Meghan Trainor - Just a friend to you -

p.s : Thank's for the memories, K.